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30 March 2006 @ 12:58 am
love, i get so lost sometimes... when i want to run away, i drive off in my car.  
i hear it. mortality. tick, tick, tick, tick.
i feel i have to move, quickly; do something, fast; make everything happen, let it happen, do nothing, do something, do everything.
they are only bites.
bites.
bites.
bites.
the bites add up. but i can't put it down. it's gripped so tight in my hand that the clenched heat pulses beneath my fingers. fork. knife. spoon. stab, cut, scoop. open up my mouth, the cold of the steel brushing past my bottom lip like passing friends recognized as strangers. oh if only i could separate this world from pleasure.
bites.
bites.
bites.
and i hear it. ringing. over other ringing. in varying tones that are misleading voices. i think i'm schizophrenic, but it's just ringing.
so it's late.
but it's been later.
i forgot this song. a good refind.

you got a fast car
i want a ticket to anywhere
maybe we can make a deal
maybe together we can get somewhere
any place is better
starting from zero; got nothing to lose
maybe we'll make something
me myself i got nothing to prove

you got a fast car
is it fast enough so we can fly away
we gotta make a decision
leave tonight
or live and die this way

so remember when we were driving, driving in your car
speeds so fast i felt like i was drunk
the city lights lay out before us
and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
and i had a feeling that i belonged
i had a feeling i could be someone
be someone
be someone


in your eyes. the light. the heat. i am complete.
 
 
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: fast car - tracy chapman
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on September 26th, 2010 08:49 am (UTC)
i am so lost when i lost you! aha ,that is the feeling!